A Pausing Space
A Pausing Space is a reflection into accepting, experiencing and understanding ones own reality. It was born out of the sheer need to breathe again in the midst of the pandemic. I moved cities in 2019, after my mother, Poornima’s death in 2015. I had stopped making art after she left. As an ode to her, I created a textile installation for an exhibition in Jan 2020. I found myself drawing again, as the pandemic engulfed us, in the midst of lockdowns.
On handmade paper, I experimented incorporating my pen & paint marks with inherited fabric scraps & thread left behind from my mother’s textile & apparel studio, ‘Haveli’. This allowed me to re-visit my life as a daughter; to be a mother; grieve the loss of my mother and re-discover myself.
I navigate through the meanings of, ‘to belong’, ‘finding harmony’ and ‘being in balance’ in this series.
This is the first showcase of this series releasing on my website in November 2022.
“I had left it behind
or it left me
this need to create
as I watched my mother
take her last few breaths
the world that I knew
no longer existed
I created ‘Leaving’ & ‘What is Relevant?’
after that
could no longer draw anymore
As a new mother myself
I navigated through my responsibilities
There was so much left unsaid
As I tied the knots
to the unfinished threads of my ma’s life”